have you ever had something happen to you that you just can't get out of your head?.. or when you finally forget about it, something triggers and all you can do is replay that incident over and over again?.. a fight, a wrong move, a mistake.. you keep going over it in your head, wondering what you could have done differently, how your life has been affected, how you've been hurt, how it changed everything, how you hurt someone else, why did it have to happen..
for the past 30 minutes this morning i have been replaying something over and over in my head, and getting more and more upset about it.. the thing is, i can't change what happened, what was said, or how i acted.. but then why can't i stop thinking about it?!.. i need to get out of my head.. i need to stop living in the past and move past it..
but i guess i'm just worried.. they say we are creatures of habit.. looks like its harder than i thought to put the past behind me and just trust.. its funny how we are so vulnerable with people, and we put our faith in them to not hurt us.. why do we do this?.. because when you think about it, in the end, we pretty much always get hurt.. but we learn to deal and move on, stronger and more aware for the next time.. at least that's the hope..
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