You ever feel like you were living somewhere else? Like you are physically living in a certain place, but longing for another city or wishing other people were there with you.. And you feel yourself living most of your days like that, constantly reliving memories instead of focusing on the present.. I have been doing that.. I have been longing to live back in san diego so badly.. I have been wishing that I was back with all my friends from college and life was as it was 2 years ago.. But I need to stop living in the past because I am missing all the great things that are taking place right in front of me.. I live with my wonderful family and I need to start recognizing them more and truly live with them as opposed to just in the same house.. I have fantastic friends right here with me who love me so dearly.. I need to stop wishing for what I don’t have and utilizing what I do have..
And I have a lot of blessings in my life right now.. I should be happy where I am, right now, at this moment.. This is where I am supposed to be and I can not change my situation soon, so I need to come to grips that this is my life and learn to fully embrace it.. But its just so hard sometimes.. I was so incredibly happy and satisfied and life was just as it should be.. Now I am on a new and scary journey.. My friends are all over the place.. Sometimes its hard to remember who I truly am and not just live how I think I am supposed to be.. My heart is in a different state and my comfort zone is long gone..
Why does life has to be so different? Why must we struggle? Does it ever get easier? Why can’t we just be with the people we love all the time? I wish we could just live in our fantasy.. That would be great.. But I know that is not reality.. All we can do is our best in life and take each day as it comes.. We need to be open to different situations and learn to find love in unexpected places.. Who knows where we will end up, what we will do, and who we will be with.. But i’m positive that if we just trust and love others, we will be happy.. Maybe in the future I will be back in san diego and get to spend more time with my old friends.. But until then, I will just have to keep in touch as best I can and look at all the greatness around me.. I guess I just need be happy where I am because there I am..
And I have a lot of blessings in my life right now.. I should be happy where I am, right now, at this moment.. This is where I am supposed to be and I can not change my situation soon, so I need to come to grips that this is my life and learn to fully embrace it.. But its just so hard sometimes.. I was so incredibly happy and satisfied and life was just as it should be.. Now I am on a new and scary journey.. My friends are all over the place.. Sometimes its hard to remember who I truly am and not just live how I think I am supposed to be.. My heart is in a different state and my comfort zone is long gone..
Why does life has to be so different? Why must we struggle? Does it ever get easier? Why can’t we just be with the people we love all the time? I wish we could just live in our fantasy.. That would be great.. But I know that is not reality.. All we can do is our best in life and take each day as it comes.. We need to be open to different situations and learn to find love in unexpected places.. Who knows where we will end up, what we will do, and who we will be with.. But i’m positive that if we just trust and love others, we will be happy.. Maybe in the future I will be back in san diego and get to spend more time with my old friends.. But until then, I will just have to keep in touch as best I can and look at all the greatness around me.. I guess I just need be happy where I am because there I am..
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